I still remember the moment when I finally decided things had to change. Sitting on the couch after my kids had finally gone to bed and breaking down not knowing what else to do.
I was a mom of 2 young kids. My husband worked away so a lot of the time it was just the kids and I. My 9 month old son was a lot to handle. He was rarely happy, yelled and fussed constantly and needed to be held all the time. He barely slept and it felt like I never had a minute to myself.
I had completely lost any sense of myself and I could feel myself breaking.
I was severely sleep deprived. I was angry. I would cry. I would yell. I would lose it. Yet I would rarely ask for help. Or if people asked how I was doing I would say “Oh it’s not so bad…”.
I didn’t want to look like I couldn’t handle it. That’s not who I was. I could handle it on my own, just like everything else in life. I can do everything on my own, including this. I wasn’t weak and only weak people admit they can’t handle it.
On the inside things were even worse:
“Just suck it up and deal with it.”
“No one wants to hang out with you anyways. You are so boring and have nothing to say. All you ever talk about is how tired you are.”
“No one likes you.”
“You can’t accomplish anything.”
“Why are you being so weak?! Get it together! Why do you suck so much?!”
That moment on the couch something switched in me. I hit my low point. I didn’t want this life anymore.
I wanted something great. I wanted purpose. I wanted fulfillment. I wanted joy. So I made a commitment to myself that I was going to change. Not hope for things to change, or hope something magical would happen and my life would suddenly be better – but actually change.
I needed to be the change I wanted in my life.
I started reaching out for support. I read books. I reflected on my childhood, my life and moments in my life that had lead me to this point and I started to understand myself and why I was the way I was.
I was lead to a modality called Subconscious Imprinting and it was a game changer. It brought such profound awareness and healing into my life that I knew I had to share it with the world.
I became certified in the technique of Subconscious Imprinting and was able to integrate it with my previous acupuncture training to create a unique form of treatment that harnesses both the deep awareness that Subconscious Imprinting brings, along with the ancient holistic healing power of acupuncture.
My journey since then has been a roadmap of ups, downs, starts and stops – and yours likely will be too. Nothing is linear. But I know now that I can’t do it on my own. No one can. We all need support.
My purpose, my fulfillment, my joy in life is to help support those who are lost or breaking like I was. The ones who feel like they want a better life but don’t know what to do or where to turn. The ones who feel like they are losing all hope of a better life – no matter what they are suffering from.
If you are ready to become empowered and start living a better life than you can even imagine, please call or email to book a free consult and we can talk about how acupuncture and Subconscious Imprinting can help free you from whatever ailment is holding you back from living your best life possible.